Grief Collection
This one page is dedicated to my own broken and open heart.
It is to give voice to the void.
It speaks of the myriad of colors and feelings that have been flowing through me in these past 5 months, moving through the process of conscious uncoupling from my partner.
This page is especially in honor of all those parts of me that struggled the most, that fought to be seen, heard and comforted throughout this challenging chapter of my life.
First and foremost my inner child, little Luna.
They don’t want to be pretty poems, they aren’t looking for applauses, they don’t need to reach anyone out there.
And yet they need to be spoken and put out there. For me and for her.
If you decide to witness me in the following lines, thank you, dear reader.
12.06.2026
“Sto scoprendo abissi dentro di me che nemmeno sapevo di avere.”
“I’m discovering an abyss within me, I didn‘t even know existed".”
17.06.2026
ALL THE THINGS YOU TOOK AWAY FROM ME
“You got it all but didn’t take it.
You appeared on the scene and the scene was yours.
You were the star but didn’t own it.
You took it all…
the strenght
the independence
the never expressed creativity
the feeling of being understood deeply.
You destroyed foundations for good and for worse.
Slowly dying inside.
One blooming
the other withering.
Now you have your life - ready
to be lived, enjoed, surfed.
While I?
I have to first conquer it back,
crowling out of the dark,
no strenght to stand on my two feet.
I am the one who is losing it all.”
25.06.2026
THE MOST PRECIOUS THING
“How can I love someone,
miss them, long for them,
and yet know deep within
that we are meant to be apart?
How can I let go of someone that
is still so dear to my heart?
An invisible pull from the soul,
a drum beat of the heart
lures us out into the unknown,
asking that we leave behind
known shores…
the safety and warmth
of our beloved.
Commanding us
to embrace uncertainty,
be patient, trust.
It is the most painful choice to make.
To let go of something that hasn’t died yet,
to consciously kill it,
as an offering to life.
This is how I sacrificed the most precious thing I had
fo a higher Good, that is still to come.
With it, died many identities too,
many dreams and plans we had for our future.
Burning like a phoenix
I know something great is on its way.
How couldn’t it be?
How couldn’t I be rewarded
for giving away the most precious thing I had?
15.08.2026
“La paura piu grande non é l’averti perso, ma non averti mai avuto veramente.”
“The biggest fear isn’t to have lost you, but to have never truly had you”.
18.08.2026
GRIEF POEM
“To be reborn
One dies first
In the pain torn
Places lost
Cross that threshold
Of ventures once loved
A portal of death
In the womb of the Earth
Strip away strings of hope
Only from ashes
Can you stand up whole
The phoenix rises
From a blank space
The void she kisses
is fertile dark grace
Memories woven
In the tapestry of life
Moments stolen
On your child's behalf
A seed is held
While leaves melt away
New life is welded
While old shapes decay.”
24.06.2026
DO I BELONG?
“Voices, rumors, words
behind closed mouths
judging, hindering,
assuming
you are not there to back me up
you never were
alone I stand
in unpleasant waters
sailing out
or anchoring in?”
AMORE IMMENSO 24.06.2026
“Abbandono ogni sponda sicura
ogni áncora, ogni filo,
ogni speranza e aspettativa,
ogni desiderio di possederti
e tenerti stretto qui con me.
Lasciarti andare del tutto
non é perderti
é ritrovarti dentro di me
in un mare immenso
un amore infinito.
Liberarti
non é dimenticarti.
Guardare avanti
non é cancellare il passato.
Porto tutto con me,
dentro di me
eppure ti lascio
libero.
E mi lascio
libera
di andare da sola.
Il dono piu grande
che possiamo farci
é questa
Liberta assoluta
che altro non é
che amore immenso.
Onoro il mistero che é in te,
senza pretendere di volerlo
capire
possedere
controllare.
Nessuno e nulla mai
ci toglierá
questo amore
e la forma non importa.
Piú cammino senza di te,
piú ti amo,
piú vedo la tua bellezza,
piú desidero
la tua felicitá,
ma soprattutto
la tua libertá.”
01.09.2026
I FORGOT
“I forgot who I am
when you’re not there.
I forgot my name
when you stopped calling it.
I forgot my dreams and desires,
lost my spark for life,
I am tired.
Tired to reinvent myself
How to?
Everything was set
and now everything is lost,
has changed,
has gone.
You’re gone.
Our future is gone…
I don’t know what I want.
I forgot.”
